Even in our deepest prayer and meditation, life may show up or not. Just as our best seeds in the richest soil may not produce. This is where faith comes in. Faith is easy when we get our way, when life seems to give us just what we want.
Mind Over Matter
It occurred to me this morning, as I was beginning my meditation, that some of the time the request for a deep breath is denied by the body. There is a tension, a fear, some feeling that is blocking the body’s ability to relax and just breathe. The question is, as a person who meditates,
The habit of negativity cannot be ground down and stomped out.
Nor can we simply put a positive spin on our thoughts and feelings and pretend the negative does not exist in us (only in “them”).
Withdrawal, via an over-intellectualization of our negativity, leaves us in apathy, a false sense that we are above all of those messy emotions.
As emotional beings, it is vital to feel into and understand ourselves from our feeling body. This is not to moralize or change or make ourselves bad for having negativity, but to grow ourselves up by including all of the parts of ourselves. We cannot be responsible for something unless we know it exists in us.